summertime.

the best summer ever; because of you.

My first summer with you, was also the best.
For I learnt how to love, and how love feels like.
I had my first kiss, my first touch, my first hugs.
I learnt that to love someone, you learn to let them go.
I learnt that to love someone, you learn to let yourself go too; for them.

whispers of summer her story friends birdsongs memories sunrays

sometimes what i want to say isn't apparent through what you just see(:

Friday, August 29, 2008

teachers' day lunch

teachers' day lunch
wheeee today's teachers' day lunch totally owned; like, 29 people turned out? that's an amazing 2/3 of the original batch. whoa. and mostly guys, for some reason. and nicole and i were the only rg girls there -.- [somehow i was expecting that.]

but the seeming un-enthusiasm of the ex-nyps rg girls aside, the main thing was, huang laoshi turned up! <3

i really don't know how to put it; but it was just awesome, totally awesome, to see everyone there since God knows how long ago. i haven't seen people like dahwei and charles and the gazillion other guys who were there and eliza and elizabeth and grace [she's changed so much!] for close to four years, and the feeling you get at these reunions is just indescribable. then there were people like thomas and josh and zongxian and raash and yunyi and chuanhong that i've seen around recently, some other times, but it still was good seeing them anyway. batch reunions are the love<3

but we waited quite long before the rest of them turned up at island creamery; honestly nicole and i should have just gone back to nyps instead of heading straight to serene ctr. we thought the rest would be waiting for us there, seeing that it was 11.40 and we were supposed to meet at 11.30; but oh well. i'll go back next year, i promise. i just hope the few remaining teachers will still be there then(: and it'll be nicer; cuz we'll go in bigger groups, i guess - all the same jc people together, instead of the indiv schools going separately. naturally it'll be better; it's quite sad going back with only one other person from your school -.-

one more reason why i can't wait for next year; hehhh. much as i have a whole list of reasons why i'll miss rg when i leave. oh well; graduation's always bittersweet - all the memories you can't leave behind, all the times you'll miss, and yet all the anticipation about the next phase in life, and all the new opportunities, and friends, and just how optimistic life looks in general.

indeed, time flies. and i've already realised that we've all matured and grown [though myself not as much, i'm afraid ><] and soon, another 7-8 years will pass just as quickly as time has passed from p4 till now. and God knows where this nicely-bonded batch of people will be, that time from now.

but wherever time brings us to, i thank God for giving me the chance to know all of you; and may God bless you all<3

love you all(:

6:55 pm

Monday, August 25, 2008

highly unnecessary worries.

highly unnecessary worries.
it's only the 4th day of eyas, and i'm worried already. 3 more days to go, and each with only one paper, so technically i don't have to be so stressed any more. but i am.

i'm pretty convinced i completely messed up english leaving my summary unfinished, seeing that people who don't finish their summary lose a gazillion marks already, plus summary's always been the reason for my not failing english so far. and i honestly don't want to think about how my english marks will be like any more.

and mathhh ): geneve tells me that they won't minus all my marks for the graph question, but i'm not sure how true that is ._. so for math, assuming they do minus all my marks for the graph, plus one careless mistake, i'll have lost 6 marks already. which equates to 10% of my marks for the eya. seriously, i have to get 4.0 for math this year. or i'll be mourning the demise of my gpa this year.

i sure hope eyas won't be a repeat of the myas. ~~i shed enough tears over them already.~~

but then, sometimes i can't help but wonder just why i am worrying over trivial things like my gpa. because the things that matter in life ultimately don't include grades, do they?

and yet the perfectionist in me refuses to let up over my grades.

[sadly this is reminiscent of english; there was this part in the passage about how neurotic perfectionism affects the development of talented females' full potential. oh well; i should stop thinking about english and focus on the rest of my papers, really ._.]

7:26 pm

Monday, August 11, 2008

for the love of dance;

for the love of dance;
after two whole years of not dancing, i realised i keep getting the urge to dance rather frequently. only thing is, i can't. i can only do latin dance, but there's no one to dance with me. [and broomsticks/chairs won't work, shaowei -.-] the whole point of dancing is the company; the fact that you're dancing with someone together. and i don't have that.

bad combination; a dancer without a partner, and an insane passion for dance. oh well ._.

and the best thing is, i don't know why i love dance. i just do. it's like it was always in me, but it only awoke ever since i did dance in secone/two. and it's not like i want to dance, it's like i have to.

It may be possible to do without dancing entirely. Instances have been known of young people passing many, many months successively, without being at any ball of any description, and no material injury accrue either to body or mind; but when a beginning is made – when the felicities of rapid motion have been once, though slightly felt – it must be a very heavy set that does not ask for more. ~ Jane Austen

dance is a poem of which each movement is a word; ~Mata Hari
dance is the hidden language of the soul; ~Martha Graham
dance is a delicate balance between perfection and beauty. ~Author Unknown

maybe that's why i love dance. and i can't wait to hit the floor again. whee(:

2:20 pm

Sunday, August 10, 2008

i sing;

i sing;
"I sing,
tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
and every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holding you, holding you, holding you,

tonight."

another of the random song lyrics i like. i seem to be having a lot of them lately. but then that's probably because i sing a lot more nowadays, somehow. it's honestly an amazing stress-relief. good for the exam period. can't wait for eyas to be over; yet i don't want them to come so soon either. oh well. typical me.

but you know that i sing because i can't stop thinking of you too.

9:14 pm

Friday, August 08, 2008

angelic illumination.

angelic illumination.
"angels lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly."
---
i guess i've been a terribly worrying person these few days, what with all the farewells and emo-ing i've been doing ><
yet in a way i'm happy, because at least i know there are people who still care about me(: i never realised y'all cared this much, honestly, but now i know. and at times like this, i just feel really really blessed. when things seem bleak or get emotional, it's simply wonderful when someone shows up with a little bit of sunshine or a hug, and that illuminates the world more.

like in the starfish story, where the difference the little boy makes seems insignificant on the whole, yet in actual fact means a great deal to the starfishes he threw back into the sea; even if it seems small, it means a whole lot to me, really.

and i'll stop emo-ing [or try to!] so i won't make people worry about me again >< thanks for being such an angel, honestly(: -hugs-

10:15 pm

Tuesday, August 05, 2008

all the farewells i have to say...

all the farewells i have to say...
time srsly srsly flies. i still remember p6, and before i know it i'm saying bye to my secondary sch life. alreadyyy. i feel very very old. but all the wonderful people i've met here - seniors, juniors, classmates, yearmates, and my friends; you've all made the journey worthwhile.

last training.
ahha. secthrees y'all bully us! water games [aka getting sabo-ed and therefore ending up very very wet] when you're wearing white isn't a good thing. blehhhh.

but oh well, it was too fun for anyone to emo! which is good, it's just that we don't feel missed. xD [but it's okay, the tears always come during chalet. hehhh ._.] ohhh, and i guess the absolutely superb cake made up for all the sabo-ing we got. [yes my dear secthrees; "we love holy water". as long as we get an awesome cake afterwards. heehee xD]

it's just that tmr, for the first wednesday ever, i won't ever be attending training again. i still can't come to terms with that ><

and i'll miss all the times during trainings, all the times we filled the redcross room with all our laughter and jokes [and illegal bridge games!]; and just all the times we've had, with all the people i've come to love. and i'll definitely miss all of you.

last tribune session.
and we had last trib session today; but it was a very last minute election plus admin for the next issue. which equals no food/no formal farewell/no "i miss you"s/anything that would be associated with us stepping down and disappearinggg until goodness knows when we'll be able to make it down again. sighhhhh.

i predict that next monday/tuesday, i'll be suffering from withdrawal symptoms again. no more insane, violent icebreakers, no more having fun writing and fiddling with photoshop just to get that perfect layout, and just, no more tribune sessions ):

adding to the irony, we had two new members join us todayy. wheeee.

but then again, as usual, there's always secfour farewell to look out for. and then, we'll be the vips, just the four of us. the smallest secfour exco everrrr. [juniors! rokhini says we hope you book a chalet for farewell! xD]

and the absolute class<3
[with the absolute teachers!]
i realised not too long ago that it's only 1.5 weeks more to eyas. which means that our time left together as a class is really, just that 1.5 weeks ): the eya period doesn't count, options don't count because you'll never end up as a whole class together anyway, and the sporadic math/chinese/philo sessions peppered throughout the options period just... isn't enough. really.

i'll definitely miss all the wacky things we did [like singing ndp songs while waiting for inconvo to start!], and all the funny things that happened [there were so many! xD], and just all the wonderful people - the whole of 415, and all our teachers.

i'll never forget;

- bio lesson today.
mr ng: okayokay who still wants chocolate!
jingyi: meme!
mr ng throws a [hershey's] kiss at jingyi.
-after class-
shanin: jingyi! he gave you a flying kiss!
shinyi and i had stitches laughing for the next 2 minutes.

- ss, and all the times mr a ends early.
typical situation, 20 minutes before the bell rings:
mr azahar: okay girls, i'm done!
class: -exchanges looks- ....oh okay. yayy. wait is it fried food day!

- ms lee, and all her funny comments!
ms lee: girls, what happens when you have this section of chromosome 5 that gets deleted?
class: ...
ms lee: aiyohhh! you become turtle la!
[note: ms lee's version of turtle = teenage mutant ninja turtles, with the emphasis on mutant.]

- philo, and all the pocky/fran mr ow gives us<3
[oh, and the time he said "i really empathise with you, girls." the philo lesson after the crazy week where all our pts were due, and he gave us pocky to wake us up(: ]

- our class' love for music(:
because whenever we honestly have fun as a class, there's always someone's ipod blasting on jan's stereo. every time. from class parties to even class cleaning, we'll always have music.

and may the music of our two years together always play in our hearts, because i've never had a more awesome, cool, and wackier class than this. [6m'04 was just as awesome, though, but well.] 415<3;forever.

7:08 pm

Saturday, August 02, 2008

more utterlyyy random quotes.

more utterlyyy random quotes.
i realised i haven't written anything substantial for a very long time. but i get bored easily, so here are more random quotes.

At the touch of love, everyone is a poet. -- Plato
but i wrote a poem, because you inspired me to.
There would still be music left to write -
What else could I do,
I'm so inspired by you;
That hasn't happened for the longest time. -- The Longest Time, Billy Joel

7:14 pm